ok sumhw, dee's feeling better! much better!!!maybe becoz i hv tok to so many people abt it!!! n mayb last night was the final tok bout it!!! maybe it is, mayb its not...hu noes...bt i dun want to care bout it anymore!!!
the last person i hv tok bout it wif is jin yuan!!! haha...ok up till now last person is jin yuan. i dun wanna tink so much anymore!live life as it is, our lives will be much better!!! think too much, ll only hurt ourselves! oh not forgetting bout jess too! maybe sumhw, she dd hit sum sense to me! lyk she says, nth bother us more other den our lives. for her, her life is more precious...listening to her story...i agree...tinking, wifout life, we tink so much is oso useless!!!
i live for myself, my family, and my love ones...im not going to bother so much le!!! I'm BACK!!! the CFP one, is gone forever!!! yay!!! crazy, cheerful, carefree, emotional dee is back! 3 mths, i cater to SJCians outing!!! gang gang, P.P, ba xian guo hai.........................
my dreams 11:42 PM
haiz...the yr 2006 is coming to an end soon! then, 1st 3 mths will start! haiz...the more i talk bout 1st 3 mths, the more upset i get!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really wanna cry! why!why!why! why do i feel so inferior!why!i dun understand!so what if i dun gt into 1st 3 mths? it doesnt mean anytink!why must i have this kind o mindset?! i made the choice not to apply for MI but why am i feeling all this now?!haiz...ARGH!!! i need to cycle! i need to shout! i need the breeze! I NEED TO GO TO THE BEACH AGAIN!!!
my dreams 6:47 AM
ARGH!!! I'm seriously feeling extremely lousy now!!! I have like just recovered from all my moodswings and now I'm totally going into another...haiz
how? how? how? mum allowed!!! bt i duno how to tell dad...haiz...shld i tk up d job? or shld i not? i believe i ll bcum wad mum say if i do not hv good results :
zhi bao zhi qi n go to work aft Os. haiz...bt its all the way at dover, everyday must wake up early...den go home late n now wifout any company.
really boring...seriously boring...first 3 mths leave me wif lil ppl around me agn!!! no one to play wif me, no one to tok to me...haiz...where are all the people in the world i can tok to?!
1st mths means ppl go sch, i stay at home n slack while others work!!! haiz...hw?hw?hw? bev go work! mabs n rene duno go where!!! why am i forever stuck wif so many unsolve qns?!im seriously bored!!! wheres thambi, waste material, ant n duck?! i want night chats!!!
haiz...time stop now!!! I WANNA SHOUT IT OUT LOUD!!! time to go back to the beach agn!
my dreams 6:53 AM
all i can say is that today is totally fun! met up wif Nat, Gary, Jin yuan n John first. head for sentosa!!! starting, nat n me just sat around playing wif sand and chatting, looking aft the belongings. the guys went to play water! we took the chance to tk fotos and wait for alvina. when alvina came, we all went into water...fun! had sum ball games, but most of the time, i spent soaking in the water n chatting wif john...
den 4 plus hv to go fetch medalene...made me walk until so uncomfortable...so much sand in my slippers...den meda came, i hv to leave, so we took gp foto first den i go n bathe.aft bathing i went to purchase the fotos b4 headin to outram park station to meet my family...had family dinner at havelock road...food not bad, would i say i ate lil? haha...no idea!!! but im suffering frm burnts!!! pain pain pain!!!
my dreams 7:53 AM
Its not just you hv feelings...I hv mine to la! You felt disappointed...but why don't you ever think that i felt guilty? I hv my own friends, I follow the wave,you should not have blame me.
Don't it ever occur that the next one to feel low was me? Forget about it! You never will understand. Why do I have to be hurt in this way. Now it's worst! Mandy is angry that I drop her bag, why would I ever do it on purpose? Why must all this happen at the same time? Will I be able to recover in 2 days? I miss my old me. If these activities will remove me, I rather not have it.
Why have we all come as strangers, then friends, and now enemies? Why is there always the moodswing in the atmosphere?
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