我不晓得这一次石佛又在想太多了。我可爱的儿子说我真地想太多。就可惜我不想会死， 想太多还是会死。 那么就想吧！哈哈哈哈。。。我实在不想继续这样地活着！我想太多， 某人也想太多，大家都想太多了！！！脑袋都要爆炸了！
偏偏在这时候， 电脑给我一大堆麻烦，作业不这么搞定。。。叫天天不应，叫低低也不应。。。我不知这是设么话语！哈哈哈。。干却就算了吧！
小一作文谁没读过？ 请来这里读一读吧！！！ 哈哈哈。。。我也不清楚到底在写设么，只知道自己很累很累，只想一睡就再也不用醒过来了。。。世上的每一个人， 永别了。。。我恳求你，若有设么不满，你就单面讲好了。。。起码我会比较好过。。。
my dreams 9:03 AM
happen to cum across this poem that gaya has commented to NCO 5th batch...
here is the poem:
We shared...
laughs of joy,
moments of pain,
tears of happiness!
We earned...
care,
understanding,
as well as a place,
in the heart of one another!
We talked...
about our dreams,
about being best friends for life,
just about everything imaginable!
When in trouble...
you helped with all your strength,
strength from your love,
love from your warm heart!
When asked why...
you simply smiled,
you questioned back" What are friends for?"
We walked right beside each other
as we felt a friendly breeze,
one that I shall never forget!
No matter where you'll be,
you'll always be in my heart,
just promise me that I'll be in yours!
You are an angel,
who walked into my life!
I would hate to say goodbye
because it seems too soon
But then again we never will
since a part of us
are always with each other
友谊万岁！！！
i shall dedicate this poem to all of my friends esp to my sec sch gang, fifth batch NCOs as well as those that help me stand up when im down......
thank you people n love ya!!!
my dreams 6:03 AM
我找不到很好的原因
去阻挡这一切的情谊
这感觉太奇异
我抱歉不能说明
恋爱中的女人是最傻的。这到底是真，是假就让你决定吧！虽然已经告诉自己这一次我绝对不会说，不会再犯同样的错误，但是，傻乎乎的我却以举动再次犯同样的错误。就像家敏所说的，当你面对他时，所说的话都是蠢话。这使我们给对方的第一形象都糟蹋了。
我知道你很聪明，我不必说出答案你就已经知道了。可是，偏偏这就是让我被贬下去的原因。好几次告诉自己每个人都不一样…但是，这个原因始终对我来说，根本就是没有用！！！在矛盾和痛苦中，我已快被逼疯了！难道就没有别的选择了吗？
仍然知道聪明的你一定又会再次看穿我的心事，但是笨笨的我始终还是学不会！
眼泪就快流下了，你却说………………我真的真得不了解为何我得承受这一切！或许就像勇权所说的吧…这一切的一切就是自然的，人的本性。
回忆的声音
波在眼里
像是一首旋律
多莫美丽
要是我很肯定
你是我唯一
眨个眼我们就能分东西
再说我爱你
会把心键钜
只有些甜蜜
让伤心被允许
说过的话语
作过的事情
像歌曲陪我每个冬季
纪念这我和你相爱的主题
okok...enough of chinese...haha...finally after feeling jealous bcuz of gp 23 n 26 timetable, we finally got one pathetic slot that we are happy wif...haha n that is no sch for today...yippee...wen to watch harry potter wif jia today...met at 10,reached cinema tinking the movie was at 10.50, n wen we reached tm, looked at the monitor, my god the screen shows 12pm...haiz...ok jia saw the wrong cinema...so forgt bout it...we bought the tickets n hang rnd the playgrnd for 1-2 hr...slacking n toking n camwhoring...hehe...ok la, the movie not bad wad...why ppl say not nice...anw its over...i cant wait for the last movie...haha mayb gt time shall tk daron collection to read...hehe...aft movie, walk a while and head for rene's hse...ok so jia was to ask rene mumto help in altering her jeans n black pants that goes well wif ...ppl u noe hu....haha....den we sat down n chat tgt wif rene's mum n haha rene n dee acted in derene productions...haha all in all lets say ng for 8times though we still cant seems to perfect the sweet scene for jia...haha...but rene n i really enjoyed acting the scene...hehe...the omg!!! sorry! sorry!!! haha...to jia: army pants army pants army pants army pants army pants army pants army pants army pants army pants army pants army pants army pants army pants army pants army pants army pants army pants army pants army pants army pants army pants army pantshehe...time pass so fast today...agn lessons starts at 9...haiz...
my dreams 7:15 AM
why is it that i need someone to talk to , you were always not there...its either, you were too busy, or jus that it was too late or rather its at the wrong time...den wads the pt of ever mentioning that, shld i hv any problem i can go to u...i want to...but i nv cld............
i always mentioned the word divorce easily...but yt, its sumtink dreadful that may happen...saying out at a light hearted mood, the response is so so much different from saying out at a serious mood...i hope n i pray that nth ll happen......
always hope for the best, spent a whole day, happily shopping, washing new clothes n yt the mood can be so easily dampen......lyk i say wen im doing project, im stress n pissed!!! pls pls for god sake dun disturb me that time...thx alot......hw can we be so happy one min n yt enemies at another...
i really hate to do this...but i jus dun understand, why cant i face reality...why cant i do it? is it becuz u started it n im jus following ur footsteps? i hv no idea...i can stand it no more......i really really feel lyk shouting it out loud......i duno shld i be happy that i hv met u, or shld i not? we shld hv met once b4 we met at our very first meeting...but fate didnt do it tt way, n so, why shld fate let us meet eye to eye the sec time?! one gt prob, two gt prob...when will our probs end? tt will be only wen we carry dem all down to grave wif us.........
i duno if i hv tt kind of strength that mummy has in her...hanging on...she has a very gd reason to hang on...but do i hv one? shld i be mummy's gd daughter once agn n forgt everytink...everytink that started long long long ago.........
my dreams 8:05 AM
ser n dee
puffer fish!!!
the 2 couples in 4G
min, mabs, dee, bing's hand n mike
mabs, cher, bing
my dear dear lao po!!!
8:41 AM
We parted when we were all 16...promised to meet up asap...and so, we met up when we were 17...its less den a year, and yet, all of us have changed...the child in us has grown...we get people putting on make up, we get ppl toking bout J n R...we get people in a delimia of choosing...we get ppl who have risen to the position of a president...we have all grown up...knowing the path and direction in our lives...we aspire to be wad we aspire to be.........despite the differences and changes, the moment we met, we harp on the common topic which is.........well a topic we knew in our hearts......n our old gd memories...rmb we were comparing toilets in SJC and our current schools...haha...n ppl i have been toking bout is my old clan...mabs, ser, yo, min, cheryl n bing......
met up wif ser to go get a cake for mabs...search and search we finally settled for sum mango cake...haha...den wen to meet the rest...wen we arrived at the destination, no one was dere....haha dd a lil shopping in a shop tt i tot was cute...hehe...so met up wif the rest, bing, min n yo were late as usual...wen dey arrived, we went up to kbox...sing n sing n sing...sing until my mouth tired...haha...den took photos...jus tt this time rnd, we werent tt high...hmm...but i enjoyed today's trip...haha n best! i made mabs bdae wish came true!!! a gathering!!!hehe...the difference between tt time n this time was, tt time we wen totally high!!! nw, we sang all the songs tt werent so high...wakakaka....ok la most of the songs i choose today seems gt to do wif wad im feeling...hehe...first love was sang 3 times...haha but im jus addicted to tt song leh...aft everytink, foot the bill n all den we parted...time to say bye bye...haiz...ok la nt tt bad...den i persuaded ser to join us for dinner!!! hehe...den was discussing wad to eat wif mabs n we decided to eat ajisen ramen....hehe...i jus love their ramen...ok so i ordered miso char siew ramen+tako yaki+ice lemon tea, while mabs ordered black pepper beef ramen+chicken cullet+ice lemon tea n ser ordered shrimp siew mai...n we feasted....haha......den head for home...
message to ppl......(if u happen to be reading this...tee hee)
gang gang(u ppl shld noe hu u r la...haha) : thx for cuming today!!! really enjoyed u ppl's company...finally we are back tgt agn...next rnd may either be hols, or the next person's bdae...thx ppl i have alot of fun today...
cheryl: haha cher lala...congrats to ur position and all the best ya!!! u can do it de...gambateh neh!!!
mabel: Happy Birthday my dear gal!!! 17 le...n regarding __ __ dun worry la...haha...it ll be fine de...n mayb u nv noe, he's the destinated one...haha lyk u say fate...
mindy: lao po...haha...tk kaire k...as for certain things...we cant rush for it...n i heard u asked a few times jus now but i haven ans u but yoy ans...erm the relationship is gd frens...haha...
rou bing: ah bing arh...dun be so careless le hor...wasting money leh...look aft ur laptop well hor...hopefully can see u in sch!!!
ser: tue 8am at 159 if u r gg sch...haha...haiz i gt nth to say leh...wakakaka coz everytink i hv in my heart, u all noe le...hehe...k la...shall tok to u on the way to sch ba...ok nth to say n i said this much...
yoyo: yo, tk kaire k...drink lotsa water to bring down the temperature...anw, regarding so n so, its ok la...if u are clear, den dere shld nt be a prob...stay cool ya...n always respect ur own feelings!!! regarding wad u hv decided, im glad u made the right choice...
royston: im ok...nothing has bring up any emotions...so dun worry too much...hehe...thx for ur concern...
okok...so thats for today...i tink was yesterday, had lec den lecturer tell us to imagine we are in a forest, n write the first animal we see followed by the sec n the third. so the first one represents what u want ppl to see u as, the second is wad ppl see u as n lastly is wad u r...so wen i closed my eyes, i imagined a really thick dense forest...its lyk u walk in, u r totally wif nature but their aint a way to walk out...so apparently, i could nt see any animal at all...not for the first, sec nor third...so sad...den i saw a waterfall...i duno wad this means...jia say im not imaginative enough...but aft hearing my description of my forest, she says im sick...ok la, i aint sick jus tt im confused and tired...i really wish i cld jus isolate n be with nature in tt forest of mine...of coz, if u dun picture it to be too scary it shld be alright...haha...jia even said her forest has a silver path for her to walk, mine got no path...
ok...sum what i can declare aft i got so many advices...my mind is made up...im clear of everytink now, n seems lyk time has brought me back to the past agn...thx agn for the advice from u ppl...thx...
my dreams 7:09 AM
haha...okok...so met up wif waiyeng who has nw been the gan ma of 2 lovely gals named dee n jia...haha...met up wif ganma n as usual...jia was late...den wooo time passed fast!!! haha...we had lunch at rnd 2-3 i cant rmb wad time...den walk walk n go hm...wakakaka jia jia darkest secret is known by ganma...i even made a pact wif ganma but den...it nv work...sad...haiz jia! cant u jus let us gif u a chance?! haha...ok la i noe u wan chance wif who la...haha
my family...
nenek moyang-rozi
nenek moyang (nekmo sister)- yvonne
ah gong- wanhin
leng loi ah ma- joey
ah ling ah ma- cailing
gu po-zi wei
mummy-nini daddy- sinwei
gan ma-wai yeng
__ __ - _____ (this blank is to be filled by jia n dee in their hearts...haha)
mei- jia
mei fu- berg father...wakakaka
nephew- future berg...
son-yong quan
rough outline of the damn big damn long family...haha ok so project went quite well today thought i find that the way doesnt seems to gt everyone involve...gt to change my way...which i tot of...so hopefully, thur, all is well...n haha im happy today project was well quite a success...thou we didnt manage to finish but thur really must chiong le...
haiz...happy stuff nv gets to part wif sad stuff huh...why does it seems that the whole world prob is on us? i hv no idea...jia say only we tink lyk tt...but we cant help wad...they say, we sad...ok la other den one tink i worried, jia dun bother...haha...haiz...im wondering is there by chance im slipping bac to the past agn...haiz...i dun wan i so so dun wan...well tt was yesterday...haha!!! im gonna tk jia advice...yes everyone ought to have a chance...no one person is same...suddenly, i feel so much lighter...wakakaka
n tmr got to wake up on time b4 my dear dear sister kill me...haha i ll try,if nt, u go first ba...secure ur dream!!!haha
my dreams 5:49 AM
haha...ok im blogging since jia asked me too...haha...ok actually gt nth much to blog bout but i noe deres alot of happening recently!!!stress has been piling up up and more up...projects after projects...tests aft tests and sem exams are cuming on wk 18...date due for last project is wk 16...wooo hooo...gonna chiong everytink in 2 wks? FAT HOPE!!!den my old sch trend ll cum bac...haha which i noe ll kill me...wakakaka hopefully during tue 6 hrs break we can chiong finish fam com project...n tada i can concentrate on my studies!!! seriously...wai yeng is making me more stress...tmr gg study wif her n shes actually really gg to study FON...my god...hardworking...i can slack no more!!! CHIONG CHIONG CHIONG!!!!ok watched transformers yesterday wif duke...hehe...ok la...he wanted to watch long ago jus tt his bro n sis didnt want to...wakakaka...ok la...daron said it was too much of sumtink making it not tt nice...as for dee...haha i nv liked such show anyway...haha...but then was helping yq wif his clinical...n to both of our surprise, he passed!!! weeeeeeeee...haha den he gave me a complimentry tic for transformers...but he's gg to watch wif his fam so i shall go on my own...den as everyone noes im not tt bad la...haha so thickskin...wakakaka...i asked duke to go watch since he had wanted to go...n movies alone are nv nice...hehe...ok la...the starting n war scenes are too action for me to tk...hehe...but the rest is ok...nice...haiz so sad...i tink im the stupidest person to every cry over robots...haha...but sumhw, those crystal eyes dd show emotions!!! dun ask me why...mayb bcuz im still tt emotion...or mayb bcuz the person drawing was great!n im so gg to watch alone...i tink is alone...wadeva la tt new ghost show!!! its nice...frm the directors of shutter!!! i luv shutter n i belive im gg to love alone...anyway its so sad bout siamese twins...born tgt, live tgt but in the end, they still hv to separate...haiz...n chances of living agn is really really low!!! haiz........recently duno why...haiz...pls let me inform u...wen im doing project this few days...my feeling is pissed...totally pissed...n if u choose to provoke me during tt time...im so sorry...u ll be stabbed to death by me...so pls!!! if u noe im toking bout u...for god sake PLS STOP PROVOKING ME!!!!!!!!!! thx alot!thur had bio test...hehe was fun at first but boring at the end...imagine, everytime u sit on a chair n every min u hv to stand up n go to the next sit...go on for 25 times...n one time u slip n almost fall off the chair n ur neighbour is laughing...haha...but of coz my response : shut up la!...lol...to save us from lecturers...den another time, u walk to ur seat but den ur neighbour accidently spin the chair...n yt u can only stare blankly at the chair waiting for it to stop turning...haha mind is working real slow!!!haha jia arh jia arh...MUST I STICK WITH U FOR THE REST OF NEXT 3 YRS!!! haha...hw many times dd we actually was next door of each other in the toilet? hw cum u must be 2 n im 1? why oh why...haha...haha ok today...met up wif d gals early...at 2 at toa payoh...haha...in the end, we took one hr to go to tpy lib...n ltr gt chased out...ni angry say go mac...so we end up eating n not doing much...i tink i shld nt hv asked for tt meet up...haha but we dd sum shopping though...hehe...den took bus to client's hse...n god the toddlers are cute!!! dd the interview n had fun...n suddenly, aft interview was done, i feel so relax...since safety presentation on fri, we had no rest n aft sch met up for today's interview dicussion...n finally everytink is done!!! weeeeeeeeeee....i really feel a load of my mind/heart wadeva...so we are gg to rest on mon n chiong on tue!!! my dear sub group 3...if u r reading this...thx for all the effort that u guys hv put in!!! n esp jia for assisting me in the project...THANKS PPL!!!im happy...but yt wen i tink abt wk 16,17,18,19 i really bleah duno wad to do...i tink only jia n ira noes the reason...haha...haiz haiz haiz!!!! den hols is cuming!!! im happy n im sad...hw hw hw...wad am i to do?! n wen i compare myself to jia, jia is so so much worst but yt she can tink of a reason to make herself feel better...haiz...
my dreams 9:10 AM
Aint it good to hv sum1 worrying and caring for u secretly? Somehw that's how things work...everything start off secretly unless u have enough courage to speak out...as sum famous ppl state to speak out before its too late...but its much easier said than done...tt's why many thing fail half over thru...ok la...i hv no idea wad im crapping but all i noe is, it's good to noe that sum1 is worrying bout u n caring for u secretly...but it's tiring for that person thou...but sumhw, there's always an urge to hang on n be dere for that "fren" of urs...anyway...i duno wads wif the same situation but one can gif up n i shld not gif up......im feeling guilty my fren...i really am...haha...ll i evoke ur surpress feelings i duno...im jus afraid to upset u...haha...ok mayb u gt blur reading all this...actually i oso veri blur...haha...ok la wad i hv jus said, it involves 4 ppl, my 2 frens, one whom i noe exist and me!!!heheok game results...ans to wad jia ask me to do:a. how are you feeling today?-wo ke yihaha im still alrite to get pass today...b.do ur friend see you?-lian ai da renactually i duno wad the song title means la...all i noe is to do wif lovec.will you get married?-fei ni mo shuhaha...ok i only belong to that one persond.what is your best friend's theme song-superwomenok la...i hv lots of best friends...so they are all superwomene.what is the story of your life- ai de zhu xuan lvok so my story is all about love, n more lovef.what was primary school like- chao xi huan nierr...so im liking everyone i meet? so no way!!! dere are many ppl i dislike too...hahag.how can you get ahead in life?-zhong guo huaokok...i hv to speak chi to get ahead...not quite hard for me...h.what is the best thing about your friends?-superwomenhaha...ok...dey are all superwomen to save my day!!!i.what is it stall for this weekend?- ting mama de huaokok...i hv to be a gd gal n listen to mummy...j.what song describes you?- chu koui duno hw much it describes me...k.describe your grandparents?- ai daolove...love...sweet...how true i dunol.how is your life going- ting mama de huaok la...i noe i listen to my mum words alot la...m.how does the world see you?-2 yue 30 hao jianok no link but most prob...i dun exist...hahan.will you have a happy life?- lun dun da qiao kua xia laihaha...oh no my life ll be lyk london bridge...collaspeo.what does your friend really think of you?-2 yue 30 hao jianagain, i dun exist...hahap.do people secretly lust after you?-qing zai wo hou hui zhi qian li kai wono link i guessq.how can i make myself happy?-ai daohaha...to get happy i nd lover.what should you do with your life?-bu si zhi mihaha...i shld not die...s.will you ever have children?-qing zai wo hou hui zhi qian li kai wohaha...seems lyk i ll not hv hahaok end of game...not much link i guess...haha
my dreams 9:57 AM
Check out this MySpace MP3 Player!
the 2 couples in 4G
mabs, cher, bing
sing in one united voice!!!!
cher, look at the cam!!!