Will never forget this day…

my dreams 6:16 AM

a habit we will nv change.........

my dreams 5:34 AM

my gosh!!! i waited and waited...finally, its time for sch reopen...n stupid i hv to gt sore eyes from daron!!! den he can go sch and im detained at home!!! :'( anyway this is a lesson to learn before i really stepped into clinical area!!!

so to all nurses and nurses to be... nv be careless...everytink u do...remember to wash your hands...even if it's jus touching a small bottle of eyedrop!!!

this is so argh!!!i cant stand staying at home the whole day slping...so not my life...i wanna go back sch!!! i wanna meet jia n rene at 159 at 8am...i wanna see the rest of my class...:'( haiz...hopefully i ll gt well soon...during my course of recovery, thx to those that show concern...n yvonne really said sumtink tt made me super duper jealous!!!! ha

my dreams 10:46 PM

alrite 16/6/2007...fifth batch squad gathering!!! woo hoo...so time to meet up wif old pals tt shed blood n sweat wif me for the past four years!!! but sad to say, the no. of ppl that attended was really pathetic! but oh well, we all had fun i guess!!! so woke up early in the morning and guess wad! i wasnt late at all!!! hehe...haha...so we all arrived at sentosa at arnd 10 plus - 11am. there was a slight drizzle wen we arrived at palawan beach...but the rugged us had nth to fear...hehe...we found a place, set up our stuff and started eating...according to gaya, we tend to eat everytime we meet...hehe...so started off the day wif gaya, ting, net, yani, ro, gek n me!!! hehe...after snacking abit, we went to waddle in the water...as the rest didnt want to get wet, we jus walk about in the water...we had a sand ball throwing competition to see who can throw the furthest!!! in the end, hald of my sandball landed in the sea and the other half on ro!!! haha...den we wen over to the playground to tk pics!!! hehe...we also saw sum cj ppl n one of dem look lyk jim...haha...marvel gel...wen we came back, ting say she was veri warm, so ting, yani n i decided to soak in the sea. we played until it began to rain...jus happen, jam arrived. so we used her poncho to cover all our belongings. in the end, an umbrella was used as the center pole of the 'tentage' to cover our belongings n 2 umbrellas were shared among us...i noe its damn stupid...haha...so its lyk raining...den on the beach, a bunch of ppl standing under 2 umbrella n eating below the umbrella...haha!!! wen we felt the rain was not gg to stop, we finally moved into the shelter...haha...n wen the rain stopped, we shift out agn n den rou bing appears!!! haha...funny tink is both rb n jam went over to siloso first before cuming over to palawan...wen to play water agn!!! den before we left the water due to high tide, gaya splash water on my head...salty water!!! gosh!!! haha...after we left the water, we had a hole digging competition...suppose to use heels, but i laughed so much tt i change to my hands...haha...we r lyk idiots la...standing in one row den all moving one leg n digging hole...haha...as the drizzle became heavier, we went to bather n wen vivo...Ro, ting n yani left...so the rest of us went on window shopping spree!!!hehe...den at forever 21, i was playing with the 'tai-tai' rings wif rb, gek n jam...hehe...so funny la...jam really thought i wen china...hha...went back home n saw adora...haha so qiao...she went sentosa the same time left the same time...though she went siloso...den aft tt she went vivo n we only saw each other at sk stat...haha...

as for today, chiong my CT essay last nite till 4am...only managed to wake up at 12nn...was nt able to accompany mum to visit ah ma. in the evening, head down to marina bay to meet cfp gang. in the end,dere were only meda, alvi,flora,jin yuan,eric n me...n those tt went kbox were flora, jin yuan n eric...steamboat...alot of splattering n sizzling...haha...pain...so we came up wif a checklist for it! that is to wear gloves, long sleeve shirt, jeans (never wear hot pants!!!) and a face mask that only expose the eyes...haha...alot of funny tink happened!!!firstly, meda spilled 2 cups of ice on my seat n my bag...causing me n her to scream so loud tt everyone's eyes were on us...haha...the scream was lyk the one we ride a rollarcoaster...haha...den next, flora tried to take a piece of meat n the whole steamboat thing was slanted...haha...den meda tried to put the food into the soup n she dropped it in.the water splash up n sum went onto jin yuan's face...thru out the whole tink, flora, alvi n i our hands were lyk ostrich, go in n out, wan to tk food but before we tk the food, our hands shrink back agn...haha...trauma from splattering...haha...and eric was crowned the prawn machine becoz of me!!! hehe...meda peng kang the prawn den pass it to me.
dee: i dun eat prawn (gg to pass to meda)
meda:i oso dun eat prawn
(dee turn arnd n put on alvi's plate)
meda: alvi dun eat unshelled prawn
(alvi wanted to pass to flora)
flora: (pointing to jin yuan) pass pass pass!!!
jin yuan: pass
so finally, the prawn landed on eric's plate...haha n he started shelling all the prawns!!! haha...n of coz those tt said pass n i dun eat prawns ( except me) were fed wif prawns...haha

only reached home at 12am plus...was afraid so i walked veri fast...duno hw many times i twisted my leg on the short route home...gosh...pain...n meda reminded me that we had known each other for 6-7mths le...which is a long time!!! time pass fast!!! n i really pei fu jin yuan for being able to hold on for 3 yrs!!! all the way jin yuan!!!

my dreams 10:51 AM

i duno...i really can't stand it anymore...why must i even cum into this world?! i duno...now the trio ll it ever fall apart i duno? why am i always changing? i duno...do i hv split personality? i duno mayb im crazy...

back in sjc, my fears were lonely n self-conscious, its a place, where i can totally hang out n be myself...a place, where i nv lost myself...den sp 2 wks, i lost myself totally!!! i nv could treat my sp frens lyk how i treat mab,rene,yo,min, jing yi n all...but sumhw, i found myself...now in 28...i lost myself once agn...a zombie me...i duno wad to do...i really duno wad to do...

to jia: im really sorry...i noe u hv alr tried ur best to salvage the whole situation tonite...im so sorry

it has been years since i last thought about S. i really feel lyk doing it...dis time, i can jus do it n be done wif it...sumhw, i dun bother bout my worries anymore, i dun bother abt ppl n i dun bother abt hw ppl tink of me...jus do it n be gone......................

i tink the only solution to find bac the old me i hv found it...but ll it work, i duno..............all i can say is, im getting worst n worst.........i cant accept tt...i duno wad to do...........i wanna say gdbye forever............................................................................................................................................................

my dreams 8:40 AM